This past Friday had the potential to be a rough day. In fact, in the past, I would have chosen to make it so. August 7th was my only son's 17th birthday. Sadly, I wasn't able to spend it with him or be involved in the festivities on any level. That same day also brought news that a job I'd recently interviewed for would not be materializing. Both of those disappointments were direct results of decisions and poor choices I've made in the past. Unfortunate behavior that's had a profoundly damaging effect on my family and my own psyche.
There was a time, not too long ago, that I would have used this pain to stew in self-pity, guilt, anger, and depression. This past Friday, I chose not to live that way any longer.
The principles illustrated in Conversations with God and put on paper by Neale Donald Walsch have helped me to RE-MEMBER that every single day is an opportunity to recreate my life and make a choice as to how I will allow a situation to exist in my reality.
What an incredible blessing to re-member that, when I'm wounded, emotionally or otherwise, it is most likely MY soul that has chosen to undergo that hurt. Why? Because it is a part of the life experience that I have CHOSEN to undergo in order to better know myself. And, because without that pain, I simply could never TRULY appreciate the happiness that exists in abundance around me now and in the future.
There will come a day, and I intend for it to be very soon, that I will be with my son on his birthday and enjoy the splendor of his company. And, that enjoyment will be all the sweeter as I
compare it to the pain of previous experience.
As for the job, how may I make any judgement about that? Apparently, my soul chose not to make it a part of my world at this time. My MIND told me it was excruciatingly necessary but I know, in my heart, that things will be fine without it. I'm choosing a new life to create.
That life is loaded with abundance including the companionship of my children and the job of my dreams...the reality of everything is what I choose. What a gift from the Universe. Thank you.
y'know...at times like this ..i'm always reminded of God said through Neale " Every outcome in life is perfect....I've sent you none but angels...given you nothing but miracles.." after accepting the situation with a pinch of salt..i always came through and felt great .reminding me once again..""thank you God an infinite times for helping me to understand ..helping to know that every situation..every problem every circimstance has already been resolved for me...."
ReplyDeleteThankyou so much for sharing your journey.
ReplyDeleteIsn't that just the most beautiful blessing! Thank you!
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